martyr

Inject me some morphine to numb the pain...Please.....

He is back

After few nights of crying, i'm now back in game...
He maybe isn't the one for me. Well atleast I have somebody to hold on now. he is back. And I'm so happy for that...

a letter...

Dear CMC,
I just thought of sending you a letter today! I just want you to know that I feel better now. I'm not defenitely over you but I'm trying my best. I hope you are okay. I hope you are happy with her if you really choose her. I may not be the person who can make you happy, but I can give your happinness by giving you up. If you only know how much I want to hold you and let you stay with me, by my side, but i can't. I can't be a selfish person. I told you many times already that I could be numb as I could be for you to be happy.
I miss you so much...Anyway we can be friends, ayt???
You take care, okay?

Always,
Karla

a letter....

Dear CMC,
Things are really complicated between us. Again, I am left with no choice. I have to stay away from you. It really hurts when I think about our situation. I can't stay with you like this. I know, this is not that easy but I can bear all the pain. Not too long and I'll be over you... Just take care and be happy with her.

Always,
Karla...

A letter

Dear CMC,
Hello! How's life been treating you these days. I hope everything is good.
Well this morning, I felt very happy when I recieve a message from you. You complete my day again. Regarding last night's messages from me, It's all true. I really don't have the courage to say everything in front of you. You asked me last time about it, but i can't answer you. Just read this...
Well I really don't have the intention to feel this way. I thought it will be all for fun. But as days goes by, i can't help myself thinking about you. Everytime you visit me, I'm very happy. And the last time I felt this feeling was years ago. I know this isn't proper. I shoudn't feel like this. But i can't help this. I can't lie to myself. I can't deny the fact that I'm falling in love with you...But I can still manage my feeling. Worry not about me, I can still live without you. Ifyou love her, then be faithful to her. I'm letting you go...I will miss you..

Love,
Karla

No Commitment???

I told him last night almost everything I feel towards him. But Ouch! it really hurts. I really don't know what to do. I'm going crazy...Well atleast thank you for an honest answer...I'm free and half-free now. hahaha looks stupid but I'll try this new challenge. I'm really being challenged now a days. Aja! Aja Fighting...

A question to you....

What do you think should I feel about this? Why should I compete? If you love her then be with her. If you love me then be with me. I don’t want to be you second. It’s unfair! because if you open my heart, you’re the only one here. Your face is always in my sight.

Magkaibigan o Magka ibigan

Ano nga ba tayo???Magkaibigan? Magka ibigan? Lagi tayong magkasama, magkausap. Pero ano to?Oo masaya ako kasi may nararamdaman ako sayo. Ikaw masaya ka ba?kung OO, bakit ka masaya? Dahil ba kasama mo ang taong mahal mo o masaya ka dahil sa ginagawa natin?Ot di ka talaga masaya, natutuwa ka lang…

Just a thought

If there’s a meeting, there’s always a farewell but it doesn’t mean that you will be deleted in my life because it won’t ever happen. You had marked my life in a very special way that no one could ever replace.

alone

Friday is the most awaiting day of everybody. It's the last day of work in a week. But I never felt that way now. I feel blue because nobody is with me. I'm alone in my dark room. Thinking what to do for the next 48-hours. Thinking who will be with me...Just like what I said in the title of my blog, I'm still alone. Please come now and make me happy....

To be free and set him free

Not so long ago someone knocked at my door asking to enter my life. And not wide open still I opened it hoping that he could bring back some lost part of me. I kept on peeping on him from time to time. Smiling at his corniest joke, listening to the song he sing and enjoying his words and voice were the most unforgetable moment with him. I thought he is already the real man I’m looking but unfortunately he was not still. Seconds, minutes and hours had passed and he also passed away from my life.

But my thanks to him for giving me advices and strength to look at the brighter side of my life. Not an end but another start and not a sunset but another sunrise. To be free and to set him free…